Sleep Used to Be My Husband

So I have a 5 month old baby so it’s expected that I won’t get much sleep. I get that, but how do you let go of something that has been the only constant in your life for 38 years. More consistent than my mother, more consistent than my father and any relationship I’ve had thus far. Sleep has always, ALWAYS been there for me. When I had a rough day, 😣 sleep was there. When I had a good day, 😊sleep was there. It’s just the best self love you can have 😍😍 and now I probably will never get it again. *Sigh*

I love my son dearly, Lawd knows I do. But him and this sleep training is going to drive me to the Madhouse. There’s just no way I can get my sleep trained and try to train his sleep too. At least that’s what I keep telling myself. After all these years, it was just me and my Boo, Sir Sleepington, (he’s British) πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ now we’re going through a trial separation. And sleep deprivation has become my side piece being pimped out by my baby. Lol Ok, ok enough with the personifications. Hopefully you get the picture.

I’ve started some sleep routines to get him adjusted to sleep and let’s just say, he’s winning. I try to be consistent but my Adult ADD having ass, gets distracted easily, even with that. I have a couple things to aid in my sleep conquest when I’m actually on it: a blue lighter bulb to soften the room lighting, white noise app on ALL my mobile devices, baby massage when I lotion him and singing “Rock-a-bye Baby to him (which I was able to record on the app as well). Just in case you need some aides.

Update: my son is 13 months now and the sleep routine still sucks. I’ve started over multiple times since I first started writing this. I’m not giving up though so stay tuned.